When you're only 90% sure, round up!

So although is not official on paper just yet, I can finally announce that I resigned (I hate that word) from my 1st grade teaching position at school. I have decided that I will be taking the next school year off to be with my girls. It has been an extremely hard decision to make and we have giving it much thought for the past several weeks. I've had many mixed emotions about it, trying to figure out the "new me" and how to juggle being a super full time teacher and a super full time mother. I call it super full time because both jobs require so much time and attention. Both, the work of a teacher and mother, are never ending. I have always been a person that is very career oriented and dedicated to my job. Now, the "new me" is just wanting to dedicate most of my time to my twins. They NEED me! I NEED them! I cannot let this precious time with them pass me by. I have to do what is right for me, but especially what is right for them. I have been very blessed to have a husband that not only supports my decision but is willing to work extra hard to make this possible. Of course financially things will be different but I cannot put a price on experiencing these important milestones with them. This first year of life I need to nurture them, teach them, love them, and shape them into the little persons that they will become. Nobody will do a better job than me. This decision has been hard because I have a passion for teaching, my students and education. So instead of looking at this as closing a chapter in my life, I will just say that this chapter in my life is going to be temporarily on hold. I am excited to be a stay-at-home-mom. To keep myself sane, I will substitute once or twice a week. 

I know that the job that I am about to embark is the most memorable, hardest, stressful, satisfying, amazing job that I will ever have.   

In the future, I want to be able to reflect back and have no regrets.  I know that I will NEVER regret this decision….after all, teaching will always be waiting for me.  As a good friend once told me, “You can always go back to teaching, but you can’t get these moments back with your daughters.”

How could I not want to stay home with these little twincesses all day?

"The biggest surprise of motherhood is just how secondary everything else is."- Jessica Alba

I could not have said it better myself.