I feel like time is going by way too fast. There's always something to do that I've been too busy to stop and write about some of the moments that I don't want to forget. Moments that in the future I want to read about, whether I'll need them when my girls go on their first date, go away to college, when I've had a rough day or just when I feel like they're driving me insane. These are some of the moments that happened recently that makes every cry, tantrum, sleepless night etc so worth it!
* Isabella fell on the floor and started to cry. Juliana started chasing her around the living room, which made Isa cry even more! Finally Isa came to a stop by the couch and Juli patted her on the back and gave her a kiss. It was such a SWEET moment. It's like she knew her sissy was hurt and she wanted her to feel better.
* Today as I was in the bathroom, Juliana came in gave me a kiss, waved, said bye and closed the door. Loved it!!!
* The girls started to spin around in circles. They think it's the funniest thing. Brad and I enjoy watching them because when they stop they can't walk straight lol. They look like drunk babies haha.
* Every morning when the girls wake up I love to hear them giggle and talk to each other. Ever since they learned to say "Uh oh" they say it all the time when they drop something on the floor. So now in the mornings all I hear through the monitor is "uh oh" because they're throwing their blankets, loveys and stuffed animals on the floor =]
* It's amazing to see how much they understand now. I can tell them to sit down, give me or the dogs/cats kisses, put their toys away, etc and they'll do it.
* They are now obsessed with bracelets (I take full responsibility for this). They love going in my room and getting all the bracelets out of my armoire and wearing them. They've already broken two of them =( They do, however, look absolutely adorable walking around wearing them. I have little divas!
* When they get really excited about something, they start to move their feet really fast up and down. I love watching them....this leads me to believe that they'll be great dancers like mama ;)
* The girls learned how to give "high fives" a long time ago but now they can do it with each other!!!
* Peek-a-boo is so much more fun now. They actually put their hands over their eyes to play it. They also put their hands over my eyes to play it. They're so cute because they only say "boo" and it just makes it that much more cuter.
It's sad to know that they're getting so big, but we're truly enjoying every stage of their development. It's very bittersweet!
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Salt Life!
Well, I feel like I'm playing catch up. I really want to blog about the girls' 1st birthday party, baptism, Easter and Mother's Day. Seriously, I don't have enough time to sit here and blog my life away. However, today was a pretty special day and I'm so eager to blog about it. So all those other blogs will have to wait. I have been dying to take the girls to beach. I feel like they're growing up so fast that I don't want to rush and do everything at once. I still want to have many "firsts" to look forward to. So finally at 16 months old we decided to do it =) We originally wanted to go on Mother's Day but ended up being too busy. So today we got up, packed up our bags, packed lunch and we headed to the gym. Hey....you can't skip leg day! Ha! After the gym we went straight to the beach. The girls took their nap in the car while on our way there. The day was perfect. It was sunny and warm and even better there wasn't a lot of people at the beach. I was expecting my girls to cry or hate the sand....but seriously they LOVED it!!!! They had so much fun and we had a blast watching them enjoy it. We even took them in the water with us and they didn't get scared at all. They started splashing the water and giggling every time they felt a wave. I can't wait to take them to the beach again. I forgot to bring my camera so I was only able to use my phone. Oh well, I didn't get to take that many pictures anyways because we were too busy in the water. Enjoy!
What an amazing day! These little angels make everything so much more fun! I can't wait to go back again. I couldn't have asked for anything better =)
Trying to walk on the sand
Taking in the beautiful view! Ruffle butt!!!
Safety first with the sun block =)
Juliana and I
My little family ♥
They were having a blast with the waves
Juju bean
Isa holding her hat...so cute!!!
Playing and eating lunch
They played with the sand for a while.
I picked these sea shells to put in each of the girls box. They will always have a memory of their first time at the beach ♥
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
What is this you speak of?
Ok let me first start by saying that this post is about MY experience during pregnancy and motherhood. I don't want to be judged for anything that I felt or I'm feeling now. These things were not written in a book, nobody told me about them....they just happened. I'm aware that not everyone goes through the same things, but here is a few things that I wish someone had told me!
1. Pregnancy- During my first trimester I had a really hard time with gaining weight. It was exactly during the time that you're starting to get a bump, but don't look pregnant yet. I was worried about what other people thought. Please don't judge me. This is how I felt. I was so happy about my pregnancy, yet hated this stage. That stage where you're too big for your regular clothes, yet too small for maternity clothes. I felt really guilty for feeling this way. I would cry to Brad saying I looked "fat." I know a lot of it had to do with my hormones and part of it was the fact that I couldn't workout anymore.......and well, everything I had worked hard for was "changing." Once my belly started to grow and I looked pregnant.......I absolutely loved it!!!! I never once cared about how much weight I gained or how "fat" I looked. It was the beginning stage that was hard for me and realizing how much my body was going to change. I have only talked to two people about it prior to this. I hope not to offend anyone.
2. Damn you epidural for making me itch like a crazy woman. I have never heard that this could be a possible side-affect. Shame on me for not really looking into it either.
3. Holy crap breastfeeding HURTS!!! Ok, it only hurts at first.......then your nipples lose any sort of sensitivity lol. There is nothing like two little mouths sucking on them to make them raw and bleed. Pumping is just as bad.
4. Boobs!!! Yes, once you are producing milk your boobs look huge and amazing. Unfortunately, I got engorged all the time!!! That shit was PAINFUL!!!! I pumped a lot to have enough supply for both of my girls and to freeze some of it too. So I pumped every 3 hrs, sometimes 2.5, around the clock, yes even in the middle of the night. It was the hardest job to do. I felt like that's all I did all day...Brad called me his COW and would proudly show people our milk supply in the freezer lol.
5. Since I got engorged a lot, my boobs felt so hard. Touch your tile floor or the table next to you and that's how my boobs felt. The only way that I was able to relieve the pain was to pump/breastfeed. I literary felt like I was going to explode!!! The first initial pumps did hurt because my boobs were so sensitive, but after that, it felt amazing to extract the milk. My boobs would start to feel normal again, if only for a short period of time.
6. The decision to stop pumping/breastfeeding was made for me. I didn't get to choose. I had to go back to work and there was no way I could pump every 3 hrs at work. There was no way I could tell the students "hey kids, my boobs are leaking and hurting like a mofo, I'll be right back in about 15 mins. Please continue to do what you're supposed to do and please, please don't talk," Yeahhh right.
Although I was happy to be done with such a time-consuming "job" of pumping, it was really a hard decision for me to do physically and mentally.
8. Sleep. What a beautiful thing it is. Even after your baby(ies) start to sleep through the night, sleep is no longer the same. You can never sleep deeply. In my case, there's that constant worrying. Not to mention all the sounds they make throughout the night. Say goodbye to naps too ;)~ Even if you have a babysitter at night so that you can go out with your hubs, you still have to get up early in the morning. I rather stay at home and catch up on my sleep, than be miserable in the morning lol. The memory of waking up at noon on the weekends is slowing fading away...
9. See my beautiful house, it is now designed by two toddlers =) You know it has not been a successful day until you stepped on a TOY!!! Most of my decorations have been put away, tables have been moved out of the way and a thousands of toys have taken over. Even worse if you have a two-story house.....then everything multiplies. You have to have enough toys in both areas and you need a changing table station downstairs too. One day, I'll get my house back, until then, I'll enjoy all of it. Ithink know one day I will miss it.
10. What is that smell and where did it come from? Once you have a baby, you have seen it, smelled it and cleaned it all. You will get poop on your hands, puke on your face and clean nasty boogers. You don't realize how important poop will become to you once you have a kid. It ranges from diarrhea to constipation.
There are many more things I would love to write about, but I just don't have the time ;) For all of those pregnant or childless friends out there, please don't be scared. None of this matters once you see your beautiful children smile, kiss you and hug you. It is all WORTH it!
1. Pregnancy- During my first trimester I had a really hard time with gaining weight. It was exactly during the time that you're starting to get a bump, but don't look pregnant yet. I was worried about what other people thought. Please don't judge me. This is how I felt. I was so happy about my pregnancy, yet hated this stage. That stage where you're too big for your regular clothes, yet too small for maternity clothes. I felt really guilty for feeling this way. I would cry to Brad saying I looked "fat." I know a lot of it had to do with my hormones and part of it was the fact that I couldn't workout anymore.......and well, everything I had worked hard for was "changing." Once my belly started to grow and I looked pregnant.......I absolutely loved it!!!! I never once cared about how much weight I gained or how "fat" I looked. It was the beginning stage that was hard for me and realizing how much my body was going to change. I have only talked to two people about it prior to this. I hope not to offend anyone.
2. Damn you epidural for making me itch like a crazy woman. I have never heard that this could be a possible side-affect. Shame on me for not really looking into it either.
3. Holy crap breastfeeding HURTS!!! Ok, it only hurts at first.......then your nipples lose any sort of sensitivity lol. There is nothing like two little mouths sucking on them to make them raw and bleed. Pumping is just as bad.
4. Boobs!!! Yes, once you are producing milk your boobs look huge and amazing. Unfortunately, I got engorged all the time!!! That shit was PAINFUL!!!! I pumped a lot to have enough supply for both of my girls and to freeze some of it too. So I pumped every 3 hrs, sometimes 2.5, around the clock, yes even in the middle of the night. It was the hardest job to do. I felt like that's all I did all day...Brad called me his COW and would proudly show people our milk supply in the freezer lol.
5. Since I got engorged a lot, my boobs felt so hard. Touch your tile floor or the table next to you and that's how my boobs felt. The only way that I was able to relieve the pain was to pump/breastfeed. I literary felt like I was going to explode!!! The first initial pumps did hurt because my boobs were so sensitive, but after that, it felt amazing to extract the milk. My boobs would start to feel normal again, if only for a short period of time.
6. The decision to stop pumping/breastfeeding was made for me. I didn't get to choose. I had to go back to work and there was no way I could pump every 3 hrs at work. There was no way I could tell the students "hey kids, my boobs are leaking and hurting like a mofo, I'll be right back in about 15 mins. Please continue to do what you're supposed to do and please, please don't talk," Yeahhh right.
Although I was happy to be done with such a time-consuming "job" of pumping, it was really a hard decision for me to do physically and mentally.
- Mentally- I had a large amount of milk supply in the freezer. All those weeks of hard work had paid off. However, I knew with two babies to feed and the amount of milk they were increasingly taking in, that supply would quickly deplete. I hated the fact that my babies would be drinking formula at almost 3 months old. I wanted to continue to provide for my babies. It was such an amazing, gratifying experience to know that you could provide everything they needed to grow healthy and strong. I cried for many days about this. I hated having to pump and would complain so much about it, but I hated MORE not giving my breast milk to my girls. Till this day, I'm so jealous (in a good way) of mothers who can breastfeed/pump for many months. I truly recommend it, although I know it is not for everyone either.
- Physically- Ok I will say that trying to stop my milk supply was the most excruciating and painful thing I have ever felt. I will go through labor again and have a c-section any time before I have to go through that again!!! I stopped "cold-turkey" because that's the fastest way to dry-up your milk supply. The first day was the worst. After 4 hours, I had to pump a little bit, otherwise I would have exploded lol. I read a lot of ways to stop your milk production, but the most effective one was to just stop altogether. I never want to feel that pain again...I don't even wish that upon my worst enemy. I used cold cabbage leaves on my boobies and somehow it did help a lot! Yup, I walked around smelling like a salad haha. Not sure who thought of it, but damn she must have been a genius....thank you!!!!
8. Sleep. What a beautiful thing it is. Even after your baby(ies) start to sleep through the night, sleep is no longer the same. You can never sleep deeply. In my case, there's that constant worrying. Not to mention all the sounds they make throughout the night. Say goodbye to naps too ;)~ Even if you have a babysitter at night so that you can go out with your hubs, you still have to get up early in the morning. I rather stay at home and catch up on my sleep, than be miserable in the morning lol. The memory of waking up at noon on the weekends is slowing fading away...
9. See my beautiful house, it is now designed by two toddlers =) You know it has not been a successful day until you stepped on a TOY!!! Most of my decorations have been put away, tables have been moved out of the way and a thousands of toys have taken over. Even worse if you have a two-story house.....then everything multiplies. You have to have enough toys in both areas and you need a changing table station downstairs too. One day, I'll get my house back, until then, I'll enjoy all of it. I
10. What is that smell and where did it come from? Once you have a baby, you have seen it, smelled it and cleaned it all. You will get poop on your hands, puke on your face and clean nasty boogers. You don't realize how important poop will become to you once you have a kid. It ranges from diarrhea to constipation.
There are many more things I would love to write about, but I just don't have the time ;) For all of those pregnant or childless friends out there, please don't be scared. None of this matters once you see your beautiful children smile, kiss you and hug you. It is all WORTH it!
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